Showing posts with label Sarah. Show all posts
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Wednesday, February 9, 2011

Tsunami

Last night was really unpleasant.  I haven't been feeling quite right lately.  I felt achey and I had a low fever.  On top of that, I had the most terrible dreams back to back.  Like, waking up out of breath and needing to calm down...

I started in a beautiful resort.  I was in an open, no walls, dining room.  You could look down and out to the ocean and a beautiful white sand beach.  Josh and I were eating food and I said, "We should go down on the beach when we are done eating... we'll play in the waves... not too far though... just standing in the water sounds nice."  So, we finished our meal and started to get up when we heard a few surprised screams.  We looked out toward the ocean and saw that the waves were crashing up on the dining room area.  People on the beach were getting hit hard with the waves that were coming farther and farther up on shore.  


Josh and I watched, stunned, at waves that were crashing on the dining room.  People were getting up and starting to leave.  I remembered that my family was there at the resort too and my sisters were on the beach.  I went to go down there in between big sets that I could see rolling in.  (As a kid, I spent lots of time at the beach with my Dad and listened to him talk about how "sets" of waves would roll in.  He loved to surf and told me how those sets would bring in good waves to ride and if you watched the ocean you could see them roll in.  Came in handy in my dreams... )  Well, I ran down to the beach to find that my Dad, Dana, sisters, and brother were down on the beach struggling to get to higher ground.  Dana and Dad were trying to hold a tarp over our heads to help us have air so I helped hold the baby while Josh helped my sisters and hold the tarp.  The waves completely engulfed us a few times but we still kept going.  The waves eased up for a moment and we all walked up the beach.  We walked up some steps to the main area of the resort and talked about how it was not normal.  Josh and I had a view of the ocean from our room so everyone went up there and watch the ocean.  We knew that if we saw the ocean start to pull out there would be a tsunami.  


Josh and I talked about needing to be prepared.  Just then, I saw my uncle Al and my grandpa walking around and I told them they should be careful and keep a watch out.  Suddenly I noticed that Josh was gone!  I started screaming for him and didn't know what to do.  I looked down at the beach and just then noticed that all of the water started pulling away from the shore.  I started to panic while looking for Josh!  Just then, he showed up fully dressed, wearing a trench coat with a cup with matches and a fire or something.  I said, "Where did you go?!"  and he said, "Preparing!  I wanted to get some stuff together just in case something happens!  I'm ready!"  (This is not far from real life at all.  Josh is very into emergency preparedness.  I think I also laughed in my dreams cause he was so sweet and prepared.)  Just then, I thought about my family.  I realized that they were still up in the room and we needed to get them too. I also started to panic that I didn't have anything but a bathing suit and a cover up on me and that I needed shoes and my phone and other things.  Suddenly, I realized Josh wasn't there any more.  He had taken off running again and I really began to panic.  People were running past me up a hill to get to safety and I wouldn't leave without him.  Just then, he emerged with my family with him.  I said, "Where did you go?!"  and he said, "To get our family of course!  They were at the room and I got them to come with us!  Lets go!"  


We started to run and I woke up...


I don't normally find meaning in a dream... they just seem to be whatever they are but this was was different.

-  The fact that my Dad, Dana, and Josh are holding the tarp over our heads means something.  They each mean a lot to me but they are also the people that I look to for advice and comfort.  I know that all 3 of them protect me and my sisters from a lot.
-  I thought in the dream that it was weird that I was holding my brother and that Dana wasn't but I remember the feeling I had in the dream- I wanted him to live so badly.  I would have given my life to protect him.  Even though he and I are so far apart in age, I have an unexplainable amount of love for him.  I absolutely adore him.  I wish he was able to come from heaven sooner.
-  When I have a dream with my sisters in it, they are ALWAYS in their 3 to 5 year old selves.  They also look just like they did when they were young.  I am also usually protecting them.  I have had lots of dreams where danger is approaching and I pick both of them up in my arms and run as fast as I can.  The fact that they are their 14 and 16 year old present selves, makes me feel... better.  My Dad and Dana were protecting them and although I was there helping, I didn't feel the pressure of doing it on my own.  I feel that way in real life too.  They have both grown up to be strong and intelligent.  I also know that Dad and Dana keep a close watch on them to protect them from life's heartaches.  I know that Josh frequently worries about them also- from their grades to what boys they like to what they are in to.
-  I have never felt so much panic in a dream.  I knew in my dream that Josh didn't leave me because I knew he was trying to help me.  But just those moments of being without him... wow.  They hurt!  When I woke up from my dream, Josh was next to me and I kept telling him that if he was going somewhere, I would go too.  Even if it was dangerous, I'm going too.  This dream can't even express the measure of love I have for Josh.  He means everything to me.

Although it was a hard dream it was happy in some ways.  It emphasized the fact that I love my family and I know I can count on them.

Friday, February 4, 2011

Gwen Stefani & Larissa

Last night I had some intense dreams.  I don't know exactly what was going on in each of them but they were disturbing.  I woke up about 3 times because I was breathing hard/crying.  I only remember bits and pieces of 2 dreams.

Dream #1

I started out backstage at a concert.  I saw Tony Kanal, bassist of No Doubt, and for some reason started decorating him with that tinsel garland stuff.  He wasn't very fun about it. He was tied up or something.  Then he ran up the stage to go play.  

I walked behind him a ways and realized I was backstage at a big festival.  I walked up to the stage with no security bothering me and I noticed Gwen Stefani sitting off on the side of the stage.  The crowd opened up and I could see a HUGE audience.  Like, festival size audience.  I walked over to Gwen and was sooo nervous.  Before I knew it, we were friends.  She seemed kinda lonely so I sat and chatted with her about random things.  She had young twin sisters that came up to talk to her and she called them Chicken.  I said, "You call them Chicken???  I have a little sister that I call Chicken!  No way!"  Well, we continued to chat and just then I noticed some friends out in the crowd that could see me from the side.  They were waving at me and pointing to Gwen and cheering for me.  I could see my friend Marie pulling out her camera to take pictures of Gwen and I hanging out and I was so excited cause I really wanted to remember that moment with a picture.  Well, Gwen and I were chatting when the whole world got flipped upside down.  Literally.  

The stage was a massive underside of a boat on land and it flipped over and rolled onto the crowd.  There were thousands of people that were trapped and mashed under the boat.  Gwen was freaking out but I told her it was ok.  I jumped up and tried to help as many people as I could but people were dying left and right.  I was worried about Marie but I couldn't get over to her... I don't know if she was able to get away but I woke up startled as I was running really fast to help people.  

Dream #2

I found myself in London at my old flat.  I walked through the door and I was so happy.  I kept telling everyone that I couldn't believe I was in London and that it had been too long since I was there.  For some reason, I realized I had my baby brother Cash with me... in my dream I could hardly believe that my Dad let me bring him with me.  (Weird.) Some people who I don't like were there and so I ignored them and walked upstairs to my old room.  My roommate Larissa was there and I gave her a big hug.  We quickly started chatting and spazzing out.  I said hello to the new girls that lived there cause I didn't know them.  They were very nice and asked me what I was doing back in London.  I suddenly realized that I was going to be in a beauty pageant and I didn't have my dress or make up and I was due to be there in an hour!  They quickly started pulling out dresses they owned and would let me borrow.  They were very nice!  Then I wondered would I would do with Cash!  Larissa said, "Don't worry!  I'll watch him while you're on stage!"  We then got ready to rush out the door and get to the pageant.... I woke up before I could find out if I won.  I like to think I did.